I have no idea how long has it been since I last posted...but hey,I'm back,so lets get moving.
The issue of the day is,EMOTION.To all you guys who think you really know me but don't really know me at all,you might think that I'm just this rich brat living an uneventful life,with no worries and all.That's why you don't know me.Only a fair few knows what is going through my mind.Those who have the same life experience as me,they know what it feels like really being ALONE,not the made up shit some people think their going through.NO!I'm alone in this world...say all you want.I have a family which is not mine,I have a dad that does not want to have anything to do with me,and the rest...Ah!THE REST!
Do you know anyone who is never sincere to you unless they want something from you.I feel like that whenever I'm with the very woman that raise me up...not my mom,my grandma.It's frustrating living a life where no one is really sincere to you...a life where you put your all for others and all you get back are rejections after rejections.
No one really know 'this' me.No one ever cared to listen to my desperate attempt for attention.
To be honest.I'm not the ones who whine about little problems in their lives.I'm not saying names but,it pisses me seeing that 'he' has a life that I craved for,and yet,he does not know how to appreciate it.
Every day I go through feels like a year...A long long year.My heart,filled with anger and frustration,drowns in its own tears.Screams of help heard by no one.
What a life.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Sunday, May 24, 2009
The Road to Bukit Jalil Stadium!
I know,the title sounds a bit weird,but hey...that's what it is.
I'm on my way to Manchester United's Asian Tour at Bukit Jalil Stadium this coming July!
I got my tickets yesterday from the nike store in QBM including a training session pass...SWEET!
To all Manchester United fans,get your tickets now or you'll regret.The match is on July the 18th,so be there,cause I know I will...XD.
This coming Wednesday(27th of May) will be a night to remember.Two colossus going head to head for European glory and their name on the prestigious trophy.That's right,the UEFA Champions League Final Between our beloved Manchester United and the team that has excelled so well this season--Barcelona.
I know it's the exams and everything,but true football fans,not just United and Barca fans should surely not miss out on this thrilling finale.
Here's a glance of what the tickets and passes look like...enjoy:)
I'm on my way to Manchester United's Asian Tour at Bukit Jalil Stadium this coming July!
I got my tickets yesterday from the nike store in QBM including a training session pass...SWEET!
To all Manchester United fans,get your tickets now or you'll regret.The match is on July the 18th,so be there,cause I know I will...XD.
This coming Wednesday(27th of May) will be a night to remember.Two colossus going head to head for European glory and their name on the prestigious trophy.That's right,the UEFA Champions League Final Between our beloved Manchester United and the team that has excelled so well this season--Barcelona.
I know it's the exams and everything,but true football fans,not just United and Barca fans should surely not miss out on this thrilling finale.
Here's a glance of what the tickets and passes look like...enjoy:)
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
The Future
Another day,another day...how many other days do we really have got left?
People tend to look forward to the future,but they seem to forget about the present.Exams are extremely close yet my heart is restless...not knowing what to do...I isolate myself from the constant reminder of existence that is reality.
To be completely honest...I don't know what lies ahead of me.People might think that I've got my road all paved up nicely for me,they don't know me.They think I don't have to work for my future..that's just how simple minded people are...I,like everyone else...from cradle to grave...have to walk the same path.A simple fact that they can't get it straight.
All these while...I had me believing that I knew what I wanted...yet,seeing through the thick layers of mist...I find myself in a maze,a maze of countless walls,countless obstacles.I can't go through the night without thinking...thinking...might this be the day I really stepped up?Or is it just me lying to myself?
Living in a box where the air is calm...thinking is the only thing you could do all day.
Well...here's a song to brighten your day...yet it's not a happy song...you be the judge.
It's a song by Zee Avi,the only Malaysian artist that I've ever listen to...and you could see why.
People tend to look forward to the future,but they seem to forget about the present.Exams are extremely close yet my heart is restless...not knowing what to do...I isolate myself from the constant reminder of existence that is reality.
To be completely honest...I don't know what lies ahead of me.People might think that I've got my road all paved up nicely for me,they don't know me.They think I don't have to work for my future..that's just how simple minded people are...I,like everyone else...from cradle to grave...have to walk the same path.A simple fact that they can't get it straight.
All these while...I had me believing that I knew what I wanted...yet,seeing through the thick layers of mist...I find myself in a maze,a maze of countless walls,countless obstacles.I can't go through the night without thinking...thinking...might this be the day I really stepped up?Or is it just me lying to myself?
Living in a box where the air is calm...thinking is the only thing you could do all day.
Well...here's a song to brighten your day...yet it's not a happy song...you be the judge.
It's a song by Zee Avi,the only Malaysian artist that I've ever listen to...and you could see why.
Monday, April 27, 2009
What causes all these crisis?
With the newest edition to the unending list of pandemic epidemic deceases,the swine flu(a.k.a pig flu to those who don't know what swine is) I can't help but to wonder what causes all these new subspecies viruses to emerge out of nowhere?
I read an article on swine flu from The Star and apparently the swine flu is a cocktail of bird's flu,(normal)swine flu and human virus which I have no idea how it got there...But that's just us,that's just typical human beings.We f*ck things up as a constant reminder,reminding us that we are living in a f*cked up world of poverty and pandemic crisis.
Not only that...even the slightest of things are taking your life by small means on a daily basis.
For example...my school canteen,the beverage sellers apparently has gotten their hands tied so tight that they have to resolve to RE-USE the straws that we just finished drinking with...ON A DAILY BASIS.I was joking about the hands tied tight part,but enough of that,I mean,is it even legal to re-use drinking straws that were just used?Of course they've washed it and all...wait...rinse is a more suitable word...but still...how expensive can a packet of plastic straws be?For f*ck sakes the canteen people are rich and yet they have to resolve to these outrageous tactics to save some cheap cash?
For crying out loud!You could be playing with human lives right now...especially with the viruses and the flues all around us and without proper sanitizing...people could get sick so easily...and worse...they'd be blaming it on the bad weather.I don't know the things that they are doing is legal or not...but when things get to a certain level...it has to stop...I don't mind if it's me doing the stopping.
Things that people do man...they just drive me mad!Another thing is...everyone knows that the exhaust smoke of an engine is deadly if inhaled long enough...but the f*cking smoking buses just can't seem to vanish.I thought the JPJ had put an order to stop all these nonsense and yet bullshit still prevails.
With all the things happening right now...there's only one word to describe my feelings about human kinds including me...disappointed...that's all I could say.
I read an article on swine flu from The Star and apparently the swine flu is a cocktail of bird's flu,(normal)swine flu and human virus which I have no idea how it got there...But that's just us,that's just typical human beings.We f*ck things up as a constant reminder,reminding us that we are living in a f*cked up world of poverty and pandemic crisis.
Not only that...even the slightest of things are taking your life by small means on a daily basis.
For example...my school canteen,the beverage sellers apparently has gotten their hands tied so tight that they have to resolve to RE-USE the straws that we just finished drinking with...ON A DAILY BASIS.I was joking about the hands tied tight part,but enough of that,I mean,is it even legal to re-use drinking straws that were just used?Of course they've washed it and all...wait...rinse is a more suitable word...but still...how expensive can a packet of plastic straws be?For f*ck sakes the canteen people are rich and yet they have to resolve to these outrageous tactics to save some cheap cash?
For crying out loud!You could be playing with human lives right now...especially with the viruses and the flues all around us and without proper sanitizing...people could get sick so easily...and worse...they'd be blaming it on the bad weather.I don't know the things that they are doing is legal or not...but when things get to a certain level...it has to stop...I don't mind if it's me doing the stopping.
Things that people do man...they just drive me mad!Another thing is...everyone knows that the exhaust smoke of an engine is deadly if inhaled long enough...but the f*cking smoking buses just can't seem to vanish.I thought the JPJ had put an order to stop all these nonsense and yet bullshit still prevails.
With all the things happening right now...there's only one word to describe my feelings about human kinds including me...disappointed...that's all I could say.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Earth Hour?
28th March 8:30p.m. to 9:30p.m....mankind stands up against global warming,yet,what I see are just people not knowing what the stand is about and not having any initiatives about this day.
I went to gurney,with expectations high,proud of being a part of something awesome.Caught a movie(Watchmen),end up almost being late for the 8:30 mark.I rushed down hoping to find a crowd of anxious by-passers just as excited as I am.
What I saw when I reached the dining area was a huge disappointment.Majorities of the shop having no part in it whatsoever,not more than 10 shops took part,and out of it some just closed the shop,as if they can't do business with some lights off?
It was like we Penangies not only do not care about our environment...but we take this day...the day that we should stand up against global warming as a day for a family gathering.
Watching peoples walking by,I see no hope in our country.To me Earth Hour in Penang,is like the ceremony before doomsday begins,celebrated with rain and lightning.Other people from around the world are well aware of the grave danger we are in,yet we could still manage to abide for our doom.
Do we not know how close we are to total annihilation?We are at the eleventh hour of our extinction yet an event such as this could still be left aside by the majority of the population...what an utterly stupid race we are.
People...Judgment Day is approaching sooner than we thought.Start doing something about it.The main point for Earth Hour is not to save energy,the energy from closing the light is peanuts,it's sole purpose is to urge people that our doom lies ahead if we do not start doing something,and fast.
Earth Hour 2009,Penang had failed to be in total support,people still don't care...not until something happens...and when something does happen,and it will,we only have ourselves to blame.
Stand up for a better world.Today you might not be aware,but the next day,the day after next,or even the day after the next,you will be aware of the doom we face.
PEACE
DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.
Earth Hour 2010...365 days and counting...
I went to gurney,with expectations high,proud of being a part of something awesome.Caught a movie(Watchmen),end up almost being late for the 8:30 mark.I rushed down hoping to find a crowd of anxious by-passers just as excited as I am.
What I saw when I reached the dining area was a huge disappointment.Majorities of the shop having no part in it whatsoever,not more than 10 shops took part,and out of it some just closed the shop,as if they can't do business with some lights off?
It was like we Penangies not only do not care about our environment...but we take this day...the day that we should stand up against global warming as a day for a family gathering.
Watching peoples walking by,I see no hope in our country.To me Earth Hour in Penang,is like the ceremony before doomsday begins,celebrated with rain and lightning.Other people from around the world are well aware of the grave danger we are in,yet we could still manage to abide for our doom.
Do we not know how close we are to total annihilation?We are at the eleventh hour of our extinction yet an event such as this could still be left aside by the majority of the population...what an utterly stupid race we are.
People...Judgment Day is approaching sooner than we thought.Start doing something about it.The main point for Earth Hour is not to save energy,the energy from closing the light is peanuts,it's sole purpose is to urge people that our doom lies ahead if we do not start doing something,and fast.
Earth Hour 2009,Penang had failed to be in total support,people still don't care...not until something happens...and when something does happen,and it will,we only have ourselves to blame.
Stand up for a better world.Today you might not be aware,but the next day,the day after next,or even the day after the next,you will be aware of the doom we face.
PEACE
DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.
Earth Hour 2010...365 days and counting...
Friday, March 20, 2009
What's wrong?Confused and in despair...
Throughout the years,I've been on the verge of self-explosion,not knowing what's install for me,not knowing what path to choose.The irony and agony is indescribable.Questions filled my head,knowing that the answer won't be pleasant,I keep it to myself.
Thinking,the years do go by swiftly.As much as I like to deny it,the friendship that once was,is no more like the past.Frankly,I don't know what went wrong,come to think of it,now I know what it feels like being the odd one.
To be honest,if something did went wrong,I would gladly right it.But too bad,no one could help me find the wrong.In fact,no one would.I really hope there is a wrong to right,it would be awful knowing that something is wrong yet nothing you do could make it right.
Come to think of it,I guess I'm just not that much of a friend.Heck,even I myself hate me,who is to blame if someone hates me as well?
Ah,they say the best remedy to all problem is laughter.I suppose I could always laugh myself out of this predicament.As to will it be of any use,that's another story.
Thinking,the years do go by swiftly.As much as I like to deny it,the friendship that once was,is no more like the past.Frankly,I don't know what went wrong,come to think of it,now I know what it feels like being the odd one.
To be honest,if something did went wrong,I would gladly right it.But too bad,no one could help me find the wrong.In fact,no one would.I really hope there is a wrong to right,it would be awful knowing that something is wrong yet nothing you do could make it right.
Come to think of it,I guess I'm just not that much of a friend.Heck,even I myself hate me,who is to blame if someone hates me as well?
Ah,they say the best remedy to all problem is laughter.I suppose I could always laugh myself out of this predicament.As to will it be of any use,that's another story.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Exams...again...
Great...the good times have arrived...NOT!
It's the time of a year that consist of three more counterparts of its own...this being the first of the four...that's right...Exams here again.
We started off with the English paper...which...to be honest...I found rather dull due to the fact that our English teacher(a.k.a Ms.Ng) decided to test us with past year questions...which is somewhat uncreative...but then again...that's how our school rolls.
Come to think of it...I've been behind the schedule for quite awhile...can't imagine the books and assignments that I've piled up so far.Time for some last minute prep.Gotta start being a bookworm again...=.=...
Yesterday,there was an education convention held in my neighboring school...Colleges from around the country were there carrying out an introduction program of some sort...one of them...being the most attractive one...was not much of a looker...but it attracted crowds for their IQ questions which some where seemingly hard and some just plain ridiculous.
For instance...What question will you never answer 'yes' to?
Give it a shot.
Apparently the IQ test was a test to see if you could survive out there in the States.The organization behind the questions was in fact a High IQ Society which consists of more than 100,000 people from around the globe called MENSA.This Society is only for the privilege few who dwells on the surface of earth...2% of the whole population to be exact.
In all seriousness...I sure hope I could live up to my own expectations...though not too high...I wouldn't like to let myself down now would I?
It's the time of a year that consist of three more counterparts of its own...this being the first of the four...that's right...Exams here again.
We started off with the English paper...which...to be honest...I found rather dull due to the fact that our English teacher(a.k.a Ms.Ng) decided to test us with past year questions...which is somewhat uncreative...but then again...that's how our school rolls.
Come to think of it...I've been behind the schedule for quite awhile...can't imagine the books and assignments that I've piled up so far.Time for some last minute prep.Gotta start being a bookworm again...=.=...
Yesterday,there was an education convention held in my neighboring school...Colleges from around the country were there carrying out an introduction program of some sort...one of them...being the most attractive one...was not much of a looker...but it attracted crowds for their IQ questions which some where seemingly hard and some just plain ridiculous.
For instance...What question will you never answer 'yes' to?
Give it a shot.
Apparently the IQ test was a test to see if you could survive out there in the States.The organization behind the questions was in fact a High IQ Society which consists of more than 100,000 people from around the globe called MENSA.This Society is only for the privilege few who dwells on the surface of earth...2% of the whole population to be exact.
In all seriousness...I sure hope I could live up to my own expectations...though not too high...I wouldn't like to let myself down now would I?
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