I won't start with my standard "it's been a long time" quote because god knows it's been long,not that I believe in god for that matter. Anyway,after such a long hiatus from blogging, I can't help but feel that something is missing,especially when it's late at night and songs after songs are blasting through your earphones.
Well,it's been a month now since I've travelled across the globe to the place they call United Kingdom. To be honest, I was really scared I might not fit in and might find things difficult to coup,but to my surprise,things haven't been going so bad,maybe I need to concentrate more of my studies..but hey,why let studies stop you from living your life?
Frankly,other than the shitty weather, Bristol is a lovely place,although personally I think their night scene could use a little boost,not to say that they don't have clubs and pubs for the young and dumb,but there's just no place like Malaysia.Where else could you find yourself up till 3 in the morning at some mamak stall watching football and having delicious food at the same time?
Since I've broken my hiatus,I feel like blogging more frequently just to find somewhere to express my inspirations and what not,but I don't know if anyone's reading..so,if you are reading,thank you,and do leave a comment just to let me know that you're interested. Thanks again.
Friday, October 12, 2012
Monday, March 1, 2010
A piece of mind
Its been a while since I stopped by,in fact,a really long while.Nothing much to say,just like there's nothing much to do other than those little bits and bobs.
Life is...complicated as always,I'm accustomed to it by now.The irony in life shows no boundaries, one minute you're up up and away,the other,the sky comes crashing down,crushing your very beliefs.
That's not to say life isn't much fun,life IS fun,for the time being that is.
Lots if things that need to be done still undone,my task beforehand is piling up bit by bit.Like a ticking time bomb,my anger starts to show when frustration runs through my vein every time I face a predicament.
Is there always a right and wrong?Does the gray area exist?
Right,is not what I'm doing right now,but yet,my heart tells me that wrong is not the answer.So, what gives?Is my life gray?or is it just me pulling tricks on my mind?
Play with fire and you'll get burned.I AM THE FIRE.
Should I continue this path that I'm heading or should I bring an end to all these agonies and ironies?Questions,questions,my heart aches the same way it ached every time I ask myself why.
Will there be an answer?Or will my prayers be unheard?Only HE knows.
Life is...complicated as always,I'm accustomed to it by now.The irony in life shows no boundaries, one minute you're up up and away,the other,the sky comes crashing down,crushing your very beliefs.
That's not to say life isn't much fun,life IS fun,for the time being that is.
Lots if things that need to be done still undone,my task beforehand is piling up bit by bit.Like a ticking time bomb,my anger starts to show when frustration runs through my vein every time I face a predicament.
Is there always a right and wrong?Does the gray area exist?
Right,is not what I'm doing right now,but yet,my heart tells me that wrong is not the answer.So, what gives?Is my life gray?or is it just me pulling tricks on my mind?
Play with fire and you'll get burned.I AM THE FIRE.
Should I continue this path that I'm heading or should I bring an end to all these agonies and ironies?Questions,questions,my heart aches the same way it ached every time I ask myself why.
Will there be an answer?Or will my prayers be unheard?Only HE knows.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Past , Present , Future
As the new year started strolling,strolling towards another year of bumpy ride and social dilemma and emotional entanglement,a strong feeling inside me urges me to look back at the past year.
I wondered,what was there worth being looked back at? My studies? My ever-so complicated love life? My financial woes?Well,let's stop here for a second.
Regarding studies,as I look at my past years result,I can't help but to notice some odd development curve occurring.What I did really good at the start of the year,I failed miserably by the end of it; and what I failed miserably at the start of the year,I did quite well.Odd really.
As to love life.Well,close friends would know why the word complicated is used.But then again,the complication of the word is too complicated for the not-so complex mind of our youths these days to understand its full meaning,thus leading to the assumption of the word complicated roughly translates to the meaning(me not having a mate and yet still having a girl),which is part right but mostly wrong.
Sorry guys for the long-winded paragraph,but my hands were feeling kinda itchy.
Last but certainly not least.As we head closer to the stage where financial issues are becoming more of a problem than just a handicap some not so fortunate people have to worry about,I too am facing some financial difficulties.I hear people laughing.But it's true,money is hard to come by,and money that satisfies you is even harder to possess.
As my Cold Play CD is playing its last few songs,my leg beating to the beat of song,my thoughts are on the future that lies ahead of us.
Some sort of new year resolution had to be done.As to if I will achieve all my goals,that is another problem.
Here are my new year resolution,hopefully some of you will start a new year resolution of your own as well.
Top Priority:Get my studies done and get well prepared for the final battle that is the UEC.
2.Being more socially active(not that I'm inactive or anything,it's just that I'm greedy when it comes to making friends.)
3.Step up to the stage,develop my guts and speaking potential.
4.Improve my English writing.
Well,I guess that's it for now,as the music is getting to me...outta control right now.
P.S.New Years eve was awesome,hanged out with some dudes and dude-ets,was rocking like there was no tomorrow.
I wondered,what was there worth being looked back at? My studies? My ever-so complicated love life? My financial woes?Well,let's stop here for a second.
Regarding studies,as I look at my past years result,I can't help but to notice some odd development curve occurring.What I did really good at the start of the year,I failed miserably by the end of it; and what I failed miserably at the start of the year,I did quite well.Odd really.
As to love life.Well,close friends would know why the word complicated is used.But then again,the complication of the word is too complicated for the not-so complex mind of our youths these days to understand its full meaning,thus leading to the assumption of the word complicated roughly translates to the meaning(me not having a mate and yet still having a girl),which is part right but mostly wrong.
Sorry guys for the long-winded paragraph,but my hands were feeling kinda itchy.
Last but certainly not least.As we head closer to the stage where financial issues are becoming more of a problem than just a handicap some not so fortunate people have to worry about,I too am facing some financial difficulties.I hear people laughing.But it's true,money is hard to come by,and money that satisfies you is even harder to possess.
As my Cold Play CD is playing its last few songs,my leg beating to the beat of song,my thoughts are on the future that lies ahead of us.
Some sort of new year resolution had to be done.As to if I will achieve all my goals,that is another problem.
Here are my new year resolution,hopefully some of you will start a new year resolution of your own as well.
Top Priority:Get my studies done and get well prepared for the final battle that is the UEC.
2.Being more socially active(not that I'm inactive or anything,it's just that I'm greedy when it comes to making friends.)
3.Step up to the stage,develop my guts and speaking potential.
4.Improve my English writing.
Well,I guess that's it for now,as the music is getting to me...outta control right now.
P.S.New Years eve was awesome,hanged out with some dudes and dude-ets,was rocking like there was no tomorrow.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Is it too early to say goodbye?
What an emotional holiday this has been.Met some people who I thought I would never see again.
Traveled with,who I thought was strangers,but realize that I knew them way back.
It's funny how things always happen for a reason.You might say it's just a coincidence,but I say its all planned out by fate.
Now,as the holidays near its end,I feel empty again.Not because school is about to start,but because,well,I will be saying goodbye to the friends that are entering the next chapter of their lives. People always say nothing much is gonna change after high school.Well,they're wrong.
As I enter my last year of high school,and friends of mine taking a step closer to the real world,I feel afraid,afraid of the challenge that I someday will face,afraid that time passes too fast,afraid that those who are my friends now,will be nothing but a mere memory in the future.And I don't want that to happen.
After this,everything changes;after this,I don't know how long will we be able to hang out like we used to,have fun like there was no tomorrow,drink just for the pleasure of drinking,or hanging at Coffee Beans or Starbucks just to sit and talk.
I'm not really good with goodbyes.But goodbye still has to be said.Goodbye to our Innocence, goodbye to our Insanity,goodbye to our High School life,goodbye...
Traveled with,who I thought was strangers,but realize that I knew them way back.
It's funny how things always happen for a reason.You might say it's just a coincidence,but I say its all planned out by fate.
Now,as the holidays near its end,I feel empty again.Not because school is about to start,but because,well,I will be saying goodbye to the friends that are entering the next chapter of their lives. People always say nothing much is gonna change after high school.Well,they're wrong.
As I enter my last year of high school,and friends of mine taking a step closer to the real world,I feel afraid,afraid of the challenge that I someday will face,afraid that time passes too fast,afraid that those who are my friends now,will be nothing but a mere memory in the future.And I don't want that to happen.
After this,everything changes;after this,I don't know how long will we be able to hang out like we used to,have fun like there was no tomorrow,drink just for the pleasure of drinking,or hanging at Coffee Beans or Starbucks just to sit and talk.
I'm not really good with goodbyes.But goodbye still has to be said.Goodbye to our Innocence, goodbye to our Insanity,goodbye to our High School life,goodbye...
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Support PEACE... :)
I guess two in a row rarely happens with me,but then when the creative side takes over,I just can't stop typing.
I created a project with some friends of mine,called PEACE:A step towards PEACE.We wanted to share our opinions and tell the world what is going on and how we can make a difference.We will be posting things related to global issues and a bunch of other stuff.
In short,I hope you guys can contribute to this project by supporting it.I would be deeply gracious if you guys would just take a look,maybe it might change your perspective.As you all know,the world is nearing its end every second we waste.So,do something about it before it's too late.
Thanks
PEACE
Here's the pathway to PEACE
I created a project with some friends of mine,called PEACE:A step towards PEACE.We wanted to share our opinions and tell the world what is going on and how we can make a difference.We will be posting things related to global issues and a bunch of other stuff.
In short,I hope you guys can contribute to this project by supporting it.I would be deeply gracious if you guys would just take a look,maybe it might change your perspective.As you all know,the world is nearing its end every second we waste.So,do something about it before it's too late.
Thanks
PEACE
Here's the pathway to PEACE
Friday, December 11, 2009
Square one
First off...to those who don't know the meaning of square one,it means back to the place where things started...to the origin.
Well you see...as most of you 17 years old would know...by now,SPM is coming to a close...and now a new chapter awaits.It's funny how you don't really know time flies before it has already been wasted,funny really,to know that cherishing every moment in life is important,but yet...we seldom do cherish the things we love most.
It took me years after my moms death to realize how much I really do miss her,and now,regret fills every vein in my body...but the logical side of me dragged me out of my misery by telling me that...instead of mourning for your lost...why not use the time to enjoy life...live the moment...for yourself and your loved ones.
So,with that said.things have been happening as of late.
Recently...I just added another 'brother' to my collection.You see...to those who know about my family background...you'd know that in my case...having lots of brothers and sisters was inevitable...you see...my family has a serious case of 'lotsofkidsandwife' disease...and to add insult to injury(kinda inappropriate,but it will just have to do),I have 3 family...as in...if you want to take blood line,relationship and a bunch of other crap into account...I could call 3 people in this world 'dad'...well you get the idea.
Enough with the family history,what I wanted to say before I was rudely interrupted by the creative side of me,is that one of my 'dad' had a new born.Weird really...the way it happened...I don't mean the sex,and god sakes I don't wanna know...I meant by the way the child was brought into this world and its timeliness.
You see,last week,I went back to Thailand to visit my family,and a member of it was already pregnant,just waiting for the day to make a final visit to the doctor.I went there for a few days,and it started getting kinda bored,so I decided to head back home to Penang.As coincidence goes,the very next morning,I woke up and checked my phone(daily routine I suppose),I had 3 missed calls.I called him back and to my weirdest of surprises...the mom's water broke that very night and the child was born that very morning,2 weeks before the estimated time.
Wierd innit?How the Almighty works.
Another extra info,the newly born is as healthy as a newly born can be.
Into another subject.Due to the SPMs,I was forced to take tuition to boost the chances of me getting a worthy looking results in the most limited time possible.I started getting close to an old school friend of mine(not in that kinda way),we started hanging out and I met up with a few of my primary schoolmates.It was a pleasant feeling.Brings me back to the old days.
And now...as I try to finish what I started(this column),sitting in Starbucks,I realize that,no matter how far we go,no matter what we do in the future,we'd always have the past.And to be honest,having the past might sometimes be painful,but when you look at it from another perspective,you'd find it a wonderful feeling,trust me.
Newly born,old friends,new friends,no matter who they are,as long as they are a part of your life,hold it tight and don't let go,you might not know when 2012 strikes :).
All well ends well,so a goodnight to those sleepy heads and a good morning to those night crawlers like me.
PEACE
Well you see...as most of you 17 years old would know...by now,SPM is coming to a close...and now a new chapter awaits.It's funny how you don't really know time flies before it has already been wasted,funny really,to know that cherishing every moment in life is important,but yet...we seldom do cherish the things we love most.
It took me years after my moms death to realize how much I really do miss her,and now,regret fills every vein in my body...but the logical side of me dragged me out of my misery by telling me that...instead of mourning for your lost...why not use the time to enjoy life...live the moment...for yourself and your loved ones.
So,with that said.things have been happening as of late.
Recently...I just added another 'brother' to my collection.You see...to those who know about my family background...you'd know that in my case...having lots of brothers and sisters was inevitable...you see...my family has a serious case of 'lotsofkidsandwife' disease...and to add insult to injury(kinda inappropriate,but it will just have to do),I have 3 family...as in...if you want to take blood line,relationship and a bunch of other crap into account...I could call 3 people in this world 'dad'...well you get the idea.
Enough with the family history,what I wanted to say before I was rudely interrupted by the creative side of me,is that one of my 'dad' had a new born.Weird really...the way it happened...I don't mean the sex,and god sakes I don't wanna know...I meant by the way the child was brought into this world and its timeliness.
You see,last week,I went back to Thailand to visit my family,and a member of it was already pregnant,just waiting for the day to make a final visit to the doctor.I went there for a few days,and it started getting kinda bored,so I decided to head back home to Penang.As coincidence goes,the very next morning,I woke up and checked my phone(daily routine I suppose),I had 3 missed calls.I called him back and to my weirdest of surprises...the mom's water broke that very night and the child was born that very morning,2 weeks before the estimated time.
Wierd innit?How the Almighty works.
Another extra info,the newly born is as healthy as a newly born can be.
Into another subject.Due to the SPMs,I was forced to take tuition to boost the chances of me getting a worthy looking results in the most limited time possible.I started getting close to an old school friend of mine(not in that kinda way),we started hanging out and I met up with a few of my primary schoolmates.It was a pleasant feeling.Brings me back to the old days.
And now...as I try to finish what I started(this column),sitting in Starbucks,I realize that,no matter how far we go,no matter what we do in the future,we'd always have the past.And to be honest,having the past might sometimes be painful,but when you look at it from another perspective,you'd find it a wonderful feeling,trust me.
Newly born,old friends,new friends,no matter who they are,as long as they are a part of your life,hold it tight and don't let go,you might not know when 2012 strikes :).
All well ends well,so a goodnight to those sleepy heads and a good morning to those night crawlers like me.
PEACE
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Derby of the season!
What a night!What a night!The match between the two Manchester club is truly a match to remember.
I was on the way to my friends house to watch the match,an early kick-off at 8:30,while we were side tracked when me and a couple of friends went buying pizza(dominoes) for our friends.We came up late...when the screen was turned on...the score was 1-0...to my delight.
But,sadly,the goal was canceled out by a City equalizer thanks to a mistake by our goalkeeper.The match was filled with ups and downs.Half time came just at the right time as our team looked to be in danger.
Second half started well for us,we played with our normal grace,pushing our opponents to the limit.
A second goal was inevitable as Fletcher nicked in a nice header pass the keeper.Things were looking up for us until a shock equalizer came from a shocking strike from Bellamy.With ten minutes from time...our man of the match and previous goal scorer headed in what we thought was the winning goal.We were cheering with joy and delight...not too fast.
A dreadful mistake from our mostly reliable defender paid the price when city scored what everyone thought was the equalizing goal.We were near to tears...but we were up for another surprise.Our transfer of the season...Michael Owen...come on as a substitute.,hoping to change the course of the game...and oh boy did he did it.
With virtually seconds left...a glorious pass by Giggs found its way to Owen,and with the chance to become a hero for the reds...he scored the winning goal for our team.Our tears turned into tears of joy as we were jumping up and down in delight,screaming our hearts out as the joy was just so ever sweet.
What a night to remember...this is truly what I believe...the derby of the season...maybe even the Century!
I was on the way to my friends house to watch the match,an early kick-off at 8:30,while we were side tracked when me and a couple of friends went buying pizza(dominoes) for our friends.We came up late...when the screen was turned on...the score was 1-0...to my delight.
But,sadly,the goal was canceled out by a City equalizer thanks to a mistake by our goalkeeper.The match was filled with ups and downs.Half time came just at the right time as our team looked to be in danger.
Second half started well for us,we played with our normal grace,pushing our opponents to the limit.
A second goal was inevitable as Fletcher nicked in a nice header pass the keeper.Things were looking up for us until a shock equalizer came from a shocking strike from Bellamy.With ten minutes from time...our man of the match and previous goal scorer headed in what we thought was the winning goal.We were cheering with joy and delight...not too fast.
A dreadful mistake from our mostly reliable defender paid the price when city scored what everyone thought was the equalizing goal.We were near to tears...but we were up for another surprise.Our transfer of the season...Michael Owen...come on as a substitute.,hoping to change the course of the game...and oh boy did he did it.
With virtually seconds left...a glorious pass by Giggs found its way to Owen,and with the chance to become a hero for the reds...he scored the winning goal for our team.Our tears turned into tears of joy as we were jumping up and down in delight,screaming our hearts out as the joy was just so ever sweet.
What a night to remember...this is truly what I believe...the derby of the season...maybe even the Century!
Friday, September 18, 2009
Good Bye
It's been ages since I last blogged...and in that last blog I said the same thing.
Nothing much has inspired me...I'm not that kinda guy which take pictures of food and blog it on my blog...(no disrespect),but,as of late...things have gotten awkward.
You see,I have this friend,well...she'll be leaving soon...to another school that is.But still,she made a huge impression when I first step in to my school...she was goofy.Looking back...it's been almost 5 years now...the time we spent together...PRICELESS.
This made me wonder...do I have what it takes to coupe with post-highschool life?I mean,I love the way things are right now...I love the laughter we share...I love the things we do together,but,I know things wont last forever...this would all end...it'll end soon...sooner than I wanted.
Few months back...I had a buddy who also left our school...opting for some better education.We threw him a 'surprise' farewell party and parted with him.I can't say I blame him for leaving...cause to be frank...the school was dragging him down.Same goes to this other friend which will be leaving by the end of the month.
To my patient followers(not much)...please do leave your thoughts on life after highschool...like where you'll be heading and what lies before you...and leave a word for our soon to be departed friend (EL).
This blog is posted in memories of our beloved friend Ele...
Nothing much has inspired me...I'm not that kinda guy which take pictures of food and blog it on my blog...(no disrespect),but,as of late...things have gotten awkward.
You see,I have this friend,well...she'll be leaving soon...to another school that is.But still,she made a huge impression when I first step in to my school...she was goofy.Looking back...it's been almost 5 years now...the time we spent together...PRICELESS.
This made me wonder...do I have what it takes to coupe with post-highschool life?I mean,I love the way things are right now...I love the laughter we share...I love the things we do together,but,I know things wont last forever...this would all end...it'll end soon...sooner than I wanted.
Few months back...I had a buddy who also left our school...opting for some better education.We threw him a 'surprise' farewell party and parted with him.I can't say I blame him for leaving...cause to be frank...the school was dragging him down.Same goes to this other friend which will be leaving by the end of the month.
To my patient followers(not much)...please do leave your thoughts on life after highschool...like where you'll be heading and what lies before you...and leave a word for our soon to be departed friend (EL).
This blog is posted in memories of our beloved friend Ele...
Thursday, June 25, 2009
The thoughts that are going through my mind as of now...
I have no idea how long has it been since I last posted...but hey,I'm back,so lets get moving.
The issue of the day is,EMOTION.To all you guys who think you really know me but don't really know me at all,you might think that I'm just this rich brat living an uneventful life,with no worries and all.That's why you don't know me.Only a fair few knows what is going through my mind.Those who have the same life experience as me,they know what it feels like really being ALONE,not the made up shit some people think their going through.NO!I'm alone in this world...say all you want.I have a family which is not mine,I have a dad that does not want to have anything to do with me,and the rest...Ah!THE REST!
Do you know anyone who is never sincere to you unless they want something from you.I feel like that whenever I'm with the very woman that raise me up...not my mom,my grandma.It's frustrating living a life where no one is really sincere to you...a life where you put your all for others and all you get back are rejections after rejections.
No one really know 'this' me.No one ever cared to listen to my desperate attempt for attention.
To be honest.I'm not the ones who whine about little problems in their lives.I'm not saying names but,it pisses me seeing that 'he' has a life that I craved for,and yet,he does not know how to appreciate it.
Every day I go through feels like a year...A long long year.My heart,filled with anger and frustration,drowns in its own tears.Screams of help heard by no one.
What a life.
The issue of the day is,EMOTION.To all you guys who think you really know me but don't really know me at all,you might think that I'm just this rich brat living an uneventful life,with no worries and all.That's why you don't know me.Only a fair few knows what is going through my mind.Those who have the same life experience as me,they know what it feels like really being ALONE,not the made up shit some people think their going through.NO!I'm alone in this world...say all you want.I have a family which is not mine,I have a dad that does not want to have anything to do with me,and the rest...Ah!THE REST!
Do you know anyone who is never sincere to you unless they want something from you.I feel like that whenever I'm with the very woman that raise me up...not my mom,my grandma.It's frustrating living a life where no one is really sincere to you...a life where you put your all for others and all you get back are rejections after rejections.
No one really know 'this' me.No one ever cared to listen to my desperate attempt for attention.
To be honest.I'm not the ones who whine about little problems in their lives.I'm not saying names but,it pisses me seeing that 'he' has a life that I craved for,and yet,he does not know how to appreciate it.
Every day I go through feels like a year...A long long year.My heart,filled with anger and frustration,drowns in its own tears.Screams of help heard by no one.
What a life.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
The Road to Bukit Jalil Stadium!
I know,the title sounds a bit weird,but hey...that's what it is.
I'm on my way to Manchester United's Asian Tour at Bukit Jalil Stadium this coming July!
I got my tickets yesterday from the nike store in QBM including a training session pass...SWEET!
To all Manchester United fans,get your tickets now or you'll regret.The match is on July the 18th,so be there,cause I know I will...XD.
This coming Wednesday(27th of May) will be a night to remember.Two colossus going head to head for European glory and their name on the prestigious trophy.That's right,the UEFA Champions League Final Between our beloved Manchester United and the team that has excelled so well this season--Barcelona.
I know it's the exams and everything,but true football fans,not just United and Barca fans should surely not miss out on this thrilling finale.
Here's a glance of what the tickets and passes look like...enjoy:)
I'm on my way to Manchester United's Asian Tour at Bukit Jalil Stadium this coming July!
I got my tickets yesterday from the nike store in QBM including a training session pass...SWEET!
To all Manchester United fans,get your tickets now or you'll regret.The match is on July the 18th,so be there,cause I know I will...XD.
This coming Wednesday(27th of May) will be a night to remember.Two colossus going head to head for European glory and their name on the prestigious trophy.That's right,the UEFA Champions League Final Between our beloved Manchester United and the team that has excelled so well this season--Barcelona.
I know it's the exams and everything,but true football fans,not just United and Barca fans should surely not miss out on this thrilling finale.
Here's a glance of what the tickets and passes look like...enjoy:)
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
The Future
Another day,another day...how many other days do we really have got left?
People tend to look forward to the future,but they seem to forget about the present.Exams are extremely close yet my heart is restless...not knowing what to do...I isolate myself from the constant reminder of existence that is reality.
To be completely honest...I don't know what lies ahead of me.People might think that I've got my road all paved up nicely for me,they don't know me.They think I don't have to work for my future..that's just how simple minded people are...I,like everyone else...from cradle to grave...have to walk the same path.A simple fact that they can't get it straight.
All these while...I had me believing that I knew what I wanted...yet,seeing through the thick layers of mist...I find myself in a maze,a maze of countless walls,countless obstacles.I can't go through the night without thinking...thinking...might this be the day I really stepped up?Or is it just me lying to myself?
Living in a box where the air is calm...thinking is the only thing you could do all day.
Well...here's a song to brighten your day...yet it's not a happy song...you be the judge.
It's a song by Zee Avi,the only Malaysian artist that I've ever listen to...and you could see why.
People tend to look forward to the future,but they seem to forget about the present.Exams are extremely close yet my heart is restless...not knowing what to do...I isolate myself from the constant reminder of existence that is reality.
To be completely honest...I don't know what lies ahead of me.People might think that I've got my road all paved up nicely for me,they don't know me.They think I don't have to work for my future..that's just how simple minded people are...I,like everyone else...from cradle to grave...have to walk the same path.A simple fact that they can't get it straight.
All these while...I had me believing that I knew what I wanted...yet,seeing through the thick layers of mist...I find myself in a maze,a maze of countless walls,countless obstacles.I can't go through the night without thinking...thinking...might this be the day I really stepped up?Or is it just me lying to myself?
Living in a box where the air is calm...thinking is the only thing you could do all day.
Well...here's a song to brighten your day...yet it's not a happy song...you be the judge.
It's a song by Zee Avi,the only Malaysian artist that I've ever listen to...and you could see why.
Monday, April 27, 2009
What causes all these crisis?
With the newest edition to the unending list of pandemic epidemic deceases,the swine flu(a.k.a pig flu to those who don't know what swine is) I can't help but to wonder what causes all these new subspecies viruses to emerge out of nowhere?
I read an article on swine flu from The Star and apparently the swine flu is a cocktail of bird's flu,(normal)swine flu and human virus which I have no idea how it got there...But that's just us,that's just typical human beings.We f*ck things up as a constant reminder,reminding us that we are living in a f*cked up world of poverty and pandemic crisis.
Not only that...even the slightest of things are taking your life by small means on a daily basis.
For example...my school canteen,the beverage sellers apparently has gotten their hands tied so tight that they have to resolve to RE-USE the straws that we just finished drinking with...ON A DAILY BASIS.I was joking about the hands tied tight part,but enough of that,I mean,is it even legal to re-use drinking straws that were just used?Of course they've washed it and all...wait...rinse is a more suitable word...but still...how expensive can a packet of plastic straws be?For f*ck sakes the canteen people are rich and yet they have to resolve to these outrageous tactics to save some cheap cash?
For crying out loud!You could be playing with human lives right now...especially with the viruses and the flues all around us and without proper sanitizing...people could get sick so easily...and worse...they'd be blaming it on the bad weather.I don't know the things that they are doing is legal or not...but when things get to a certain level...it has to stop...I don't mind if it's me doing the stopping.
Things that people do man...they just drive me mad!Another thing is...everyone knows that the exhaust smoke of an engine is deadly if inhaled long enough...but the f*cking smoking buses just can't seem to vanish.I thought the JPJ had put an order to stop all these nonsense and yet bullshit still prevails.
With all the things happening right now...there's only one word to describe my feelings about human kinds including me...disappointed...that's all I could say.
I read an article on swine flu from The Star and apparently the swine flu is a cocktail of bird's flu,(normal)swine flu and human virus which I have no idea how it got there...But that's just us,that's just typical human beings.We f*ck things up as a constant reminder,reminding us that we are living in a f*cked up world of poverty and pandemic crisis.
Not only that...even the slightest of things are taking your life by small means on a daily basis.
For example...my school canteen,the beverage sellers apparently has gotten their hands tied so tight that they have to resolve to RE-USE the straws that we just finished drinking with...ON A DAILY BASIS.I was joking about the hands tied tight part,but enough of that,I mean,is it even legal to re-use drinking straws that were just used?Of course they've washed it and all...wait...rinse is a more suitable word...but still...how expensive can a packet of plastic straws be?For f*ck sakes the canteen people are rich and yet they have to resolve to these outrageous tactics to save some cheap cash?
For crying out loud!You could be playing with human lives right now...especially with the viruses and the flues all around us and without proper sanitizing...people could get sick so easily...and worse...they'd be blaming it on the bad weather.I don't know the things that they are doing is legal or not...but when things get to a certain level...it has to stop...I don't mind if it's me doing the stopping.
Things that people do man...they just drive me mad!Another thing is...everyone knows that the exhaust smoke of an engine is deadly if inhaled long enough...but the f*cking smoking buses just can't seem to vanish.I thought the JPJ had put an order to stop all these nonsense and yet bullshit still prevails.
With all the things happening right now...there's only one word to describe my feelings about human kinds including me...disappointed...that's all I could say.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Earth Hour?
28th March 8:30p.m. to 9:30p.m....mankind stands up against global warming,yet,what I see are just people not knowing what the stand is about and not having any initiatives about this day.
I went to gurney,with expectations high,proud of being a part of something awesome.Caught a movie(Watchmen),end up almost being late for the 8:30 mark.I rushed down hoping to find a crowd of anxious by-passers just as excited as I am.
What I saw when I reached the dining area was a huge disappointment.Majorities of the shop having no part in it whatsoever,not more than 10 shops took part,and out of it some just closed the shop,as if they can't do business with some lights off?
It was like we Penangies not only do not care about our environment...but we take this day...the day that we should stand up against global warming as a day for a family gathering.
Watching peoples walking by,I see no hope in our country.To me Earth Hour in Penang,is like the ceremony before doomsday begins,celebrated with rain and lightning.Other people from around the world are well aware of the grave danger we are in,yet we could still manage to abide for our doom.
Do we not know how close we are to total annihilation?We are at the eleventh hour of our extinction yet an event such as this could still be left aside by the majority of the population...what an utterly stupid race we are.
People...Judgment Day is approaching sooner than we thought.Start doing something about it.The main point for Earth Hour is not to save energy,the energy from closing the light is peanuts,it's sole purpose is to urge people that our doom lies ahead if we do not start doing something,and fast.
Earth Hour 2009,Penang had failed to be in total support,people still don't care...not until something happens...and when something does happen,and it will,we only have ourselves to blame.
Stand up for a better world.Today you might not be aware,but the next day,the day after next,or even the day after the next,you will be aware of the doom we face.
PEACE
DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.
Earth Hour 2010...365 days and counting...
I went to gurney,with expectations high,proud of being a part of something awesome.Caught a movie(Watchmen),end up almost being late for the 8:30 mark.I rushed down hoping to find a crowd of anxious by-passers just as excited as I am.
What I saw when I reached the dining area was a huge disappointment.Majorities of the shop having no part in it whatsoever,not more than 10 shops took part,and out of it some just closed the shop,as if they can't do business with some lights off?
It was like we Penangies not only do not care about our environment...but we take this day...the day that we should stand up against global warming as a day for a family gathering.
Watching peoples walking by,I see no hope in our country.To me Earth Hour in Penang,is like the ceremony before doomsday begins,celebrated with rain and lightning.Other people from around the world are well aware of the grave danger we are in,yet we could still manage to abide for our doom.
Do we not know how close we are to total annihilation?We are at the eleventh hour of our extinction yet an event such as this could still be left aside by the majority of the population...what an utterly stupid race we are.
People...Judgment Day is approaching sooner than we thought.Start doing something about it.The main point for Earth Hour is not to save energy,the energy from closing the light is peanuts,it's sole purpose is to urge people that our doom lies ahead if we do not start doing something,and fast.
Earth Hour 2009,Penang had failed to be in total support,people still don't care...not until something happens...and when something does happen,and it will,we only have ourselves to blame.
Stand up for a better world.Today you might not be aware,but the next day,the day after next,or even the day after the next,you will be aware of the doom we face.
PEACE
DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.
Earth Hour 2010...365 days and counting...
Friday, March 20, 2009
What's wrong?Confused and in despair...
Throughout the years,I've been on the verge of self-explosion,not knowing what's install for me,not knowing what path to choose.The irony and agony is indescribable.Questions filled my head,knowing that the answer won't be pleasant,I keep it to myself.
Thinking,the years do go by swiftly.As much as I like to deny it,the friendship that once was,is no more like the past.Frankly,I don't know what went wrong,come to think of it,now I know what it feels like being the odd one.
To be honest,if something did went wrong,I would gladly right it.But too bad,no one could help me find the wrong.In fact,no one would.I really hope there is a wrong to right,it would be awful knowing that something is wrong yet nothing you do could make it right.
Come to think of it,I guess I'm just not that much of a friend.Heck,even I myself hate me,who is to blame if someone hates me as well?
Ah,they say the best remedy to all problem is laughter.I suppose I could always laugh myself out of this predicament.As to will it be of any use,that's another story.
Thinking,the years do go by swiftly.As much as I like to deny it,the friendship that once was,is no more like the past.Frankly,I don't know what went wrong,come to think of it,now I know what it feels like being the odd one.
To be honest,if something did went wrong,I would gladly right it.But too bad,no one could help me find the wrong.In fact,no one would.I really hope there is a wrong to right,it would be awful knowing that something is wrong yet nothing you do could make it right.
Come to think of it,I guess I'm just not that much of a friend.Heck,even I myself hate me,who is to blame if someone hates me as well?
Ah,they say the best remedy to all problem is laughter.I suppose I could always laugh myself out of this predicament.As to will it be of any use,that's another story.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Exams...again...
Great...the good times have arrived...NOT!
It's the time of a year that consist of three more counterparts of its own...this being the first of the four...that's right...Exams here again.
We started off with the English paper...which...to be honest...I found rather dull due to the fact that our English teacher(a.k.a Ms.Ng) decided to test us with past year questions...which is somewhat uncreative...but then again...that's how our school rolls.
Come to think of it...I've been behind the schedule for quite awhile...can't imagine the books and assignments that I've piled up so far.Time for some last minute prep.Gotta start being a bookworm again...=.=...
Yesterday,there was an education convention held in my neighboring school...Colleges from around the country were there carrying out an introduction program of some sort...one of them...being the most attractive one...was not much of a looker...but it attracted crowds for their IQ questions which some where seemingly hard and some just plain ridiculous.
For instance...What question will you never answer 'yes' to?
Give it a shot.
Apparently the IQ test was a test to see if you could survive out there in the States.The organization behind the questions was in fact a High IQ Society which consists of more than 100,000 people from around the globe called MENSA.This Society is only for the privilege few who dwells on the surface of earth...2% of the whole population to be exact.
In all seriousness...I sure hope I could live up to my own expectations...though not too high...I wouldn't like to let myself down now would I?
It's the time of a year that consist of three more counterparts of its own...this being the first of the four...that's right...Exams here again.
We started off with the English paper...which...to be honest...I found rather dull due to the fact that our English teacher(a.k.a Ms.Ng) decided to test us with past year questions...which is somewhat uncreative...but then again...that's how our school rolls.
Come to think of it...I've been behind the schedule for quite awhile...can't imagine the books and assignments that I've piled up so far.Time for some last minute prep.Gotta start being a bookworm again...=.=...
Yesterday,there was an education convention held in my neighboring school...Colleges from around the country were there carrying out an introduction program of some sort...one of them...being the most attractive one...was not much of a looker...but it attracted crowds for their IQ questions which some where seemingly hard and some just plain ridiculous.
For instance...What question will you never answer 'yes' to?
Give it a shot.
Apparently the IQ test was a test to see if you could survive out there in the States.The organization behind the questions was in fact a High IQ Society which consists of more than 100,000 people from around the globe called MENSA.This Society is only for the privilege few who dwells on the surface of earth...2% of the whole population to be exact.
In all seriousness...I sure hope I could live up to my own expectations...though not too high...I wouldn't like to let myself down now would I?
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Past and Present
What we have , we cherish;
What we don't , we seek;
What we had , we keep.
The most glorious of times had always been the past.People never actually take the present as something to be proud of.We compare our present to our past,never really appreciated what we have,always finding away to demote ourselves rather than complimenting ourselves on a fine journey.
Personally,I've been through some shit,I know that for a fact.If life were as simple as when we were but a mere innocent soul...ah...how wonderful might that be.Instead,time had to run it's course and the once innocent soul had been toiled into something no less than a dysfunctional compass which has lost it's sense of direction.
Like the devil itself,time has not always been kind to us,it takes away everything and leave nothing but a slight mark of existence.How impeccable was the past,when everything was right and nothing was of the matter,but now,the past is no less than words from our mouth...out and gone in an instance.
Yet again,time has been the very thing that keeps things in order,just like right now,time is telling me to go to bed.I suppose,what happened in the past,stays in the past,nothing we say or do could change it's course.
I guess,the present is not all that bad,after all,it's called present for a reason.Things that aren't going so well...the heck with it...like the tunes of one of The Beatles greatest hits...Let it be,let it be...I guess moving on is the only option,but,then again...weighing our options is one of the things we should do before making a foregone conclusion
That that is,is.That that is not,is not.
What we don't , we seek;
What we had , we keep.
The most glorious of times had always been the past.People never actually take the present as something to be proud of.We compare our present to our past,never really appreciated what we have,always finding away to demote ourselves rather than complimenting ourselves on a fine journey.
Personally,I've been through some shit,I know that for a fact.If life were as simple as when we were but a mere innocent soul...ah...how wonderful might that be.Instead,time had to run it's course and the once innocent soul had been toiled into something no less than a dysfunctional compass which has lost it's sense of direction.
Like the devil itself,time has not always been kind to us,it takes away everything and leave nothing but a slight mark of existence.How impeccable was the past,when everything was right and nothing was of the matter,but now,the past is no less than words from our mouth...out and gone in an instance.
Yet again,time has been the very thing that keeps things in order,just like right now,time is telling me to go to bed.I suppose,what happened in the past,stays in the past,nothing we say or do could change it's course.
I guess,the present is not all that bad,after all,it's called present for a reason.Things that aren't going so well...the heck with it...like the tunes of one of The Beatles greatest hits...Let it be,let it be...I guess moving on is the only option,but,then again...weighing our options is one of the things we should do before making a foregone conclusion
That that is,is.That that is not,is not.
Monday, February 16, 2009
Manchester United for the BIG 5?
That's right...all you Merseyside past-tense and Stamford Bridge wastefuls...watch out...Manchester United is heading for an unprecedented five trophies this season.Oh,don't forget that the Fifa Club World Cup is already in our possession,so that makes one down four to go.
We Reds top the Premier League table with only a couple of months to go,heading to Wembley for the Carling Cup final,in the quarter final of the FA Cup and the knock-out rounds of the Champions League.So,who are you to say that we can't make history...AGAIN!
Remember The Treble 10 years ago?Maybe after a decade,the trend continues...perhaps this time with us ending with an even more emphatic note.We would be the First ever team to be crowned as a Quinduple winning club.
With Liverpool out of the FA Cup and Arsenal with too young of a squad to coup the pressure...I guess the only team that could give us a slight challenge for the FA glory would be the team with a newly appointed coach in Guus Hiddink,the Blues...Chelsea.
Well...with England seemingly in our grasps...I guess the only challenging title for us is the prized UEFA Champions League title...which ofcourse is ours after what happened in Moscow on a cold Russian night.Barcelona among others are one of the team favoured for the title...with their season starting on the highest note possible...Messi's squad might prove to be a handful for us...hopefully we'll prevail...as we always do..:)
Before I end this post...I would like to dedicate a Nemanja chant for our one and only Nemanja Vidic..who had been spot-on all season long.
Nemanja!Whoa~
Nemanja!Whoa~
He comes from Serbia
He'll f*cking murder ye
Here's how the song goes..
PEACE
We Reds top the Premier League table with only a couple of months to go,heading to Wembley for the Carling Cup final,in the quarter final of the FA Cup and the knock-out rounds of the Champions League.So,who are you to say that we can't make history...AGAIN!
Remember The Treble 10 years ago?Maybe after a decade,the trend continues...perhaps this time with us ending with an even more emphatic note.We would be the First ever team to be crowned as a Quinduple winning club.
With Liverpool out of the FA Cup and Arsenal with too young of a squad to coup the pressure...I guess the only team that could give us a slight challenge for the FA glory would be the team with a newly appointed coach in Guus Hiddink,the Blues...Chelsea.
Well...with England seemingly in our grasps...I guess the only challenging title for us is the prized UEFA Champions League title...which ofcourse is ours after what happened in Moscow on a cold Russian night.Barcelona among others are one of the team favoured for the title...with their season starting on the highest note possible...Messi's squad might prove to be a handful for us...hopefully we'll prevail...as we always do..:)
Before I end this post...I would like to dedicate a Nemanja chant for our one and only Nemanja Vidic..who had been spot-on all season long.
Nemanja!Whoa~
Nemanja!Whoa~
He comes from Serbia
He'll f*cking murder ye
Here's how the song goes..
PEACE
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Meaningless?
Someone once told me that life is meaningless...true in some cases..but not always.
Life's filled with question-marks..never will you know what's installed for you. Joy,Acceptance,Fear,Surprise,Sadness,Disgust,Anger and Anticipation are the 8 emotions waiting for you to discover at every corner of your life.Some you might love it,and some you might not...that's just how life is.
So,personally I don't really agree that life is meaningless,some might find it so,but as for me...life is like a big party...enjoy it before it ends.
Back to the topic,if you find life meaningless,cause I know some people do think this way...well...you might wanna look at the uncountable numbers of human being that has ended their life to free themselves from their misery.Do I agree of their doing?NO,that's just plain stupidity and you'll find yourself dying in agony.
To those people who find life meaningless,I guess just haven't found your purpose in life,don't quit just yet,life is too short to be thinking of quitting.
Peace to you all..:)
Life's filled with question-marks..never will you know what's installed for you. Joy,Acceptance,Fear,Surprise,Sadness,Disgust,Anger and Anticipation are the 8 emotions waiting for you to discover at every corner of your life.Some you might love it,and some you might not...that's just how life is.
So,personally I don't really agree that life is meaningless,some might find it so,but as for me...life is like a big party...enjoy it before it ends.
Back to the topic,if you find life meaningless,cause I know some people do think this way...well...you might wanna look at the uncountable numbers of human being that has ended their life to free themselves from their misery.Do I agree of their doing?NO,that's just plain stupidity and you'll find yourself dying in agony.
To those people who find life meaningless,I guess just haven't found your purpose in life,don't quit just yet,life is too short to be thinking of quitting.
Peace to you all..:)
Friday, February 6, 2009
Hyperhidrosis?
Anyone knows what that is?Let me tell you what it is..it's a condition characterized by abnormally increased perspiration,'sweaty palms' in short.
I know,some might say its gross and what not..unless your a victim of it..then you'll know whats it like.To be honest I kinda always knew that there's something wrong with my hands,its colder than others in cold condition and constantly moist throughout the day...well not literally throughout the day...but...you know what I mean.
Anyhow,this condition of mine is some what quite rare.It affects only about 2.8% of the population and most of it occurs on people aged 25-64...try doing the math.Good thing is it could be permanently cured either through medication or surgery.
If anyone has this condition...please do voice your opinion and share some thoughts on it.
I know,some might say its gross and what not..unless your a victim of it..then you'll know whats it like.To be honest I kinda always knew that there's something wrong with my hands,its colder than others in cold condition and constantly moist throughout the day...well not literally throughout the day...but...you know what I mean.
Anyhow,this condition of mine is some what quite rare.It affects only about 2.8% of the population and most of it occurs on people aged 25-64...try doing the math.Good thing is it could be permanently cured either through medication or surgery.
If anyone has this condition...please do voice your opinion and share some thoughts on it.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
To her : I'm still the guy that can't be moved.
First of all,I wanna apologize for 'handing' up my essay late.
Time could never fly any faster,in a blink of an eye...it's Chinese New Year(MONEY).Anyways this blog is dedicated to the one and only 'sponge bob square pants' or 'miss I get sick after eating apples'.
Before school started,she asked for a somewhat astonishing favor from me.She said:Kennnn(notice the 'n's?That's how long she drags my name.) write me an essay describing me.So,being the gentleman that I am(I hear some coughs),I sportingly agreed.I never expected the essay would took me so long.But hey,better late than never.
How could I describe you?Words can't really describe you,there's just too much to say about you.Your funny,cute,mature,immature,childish,silly...your just simply...everything.It's been awhile since I last talked with her.Before we got back to talking,it's been like almost a year since we spoken a word to each other.
Even though it's been so long,I still can't really find the will to get over her.She's like cocaine to me,making me helplessly addicted to her.Though I might never have a chance to be with her,I could still love her.
Like a child,she acts according to her mood.A minute she could be laughing and joking around,the other she could be biting your head off.She once asked me what attracts me most.Simple,her innocence.
"Your not afraid of losing yourself.Party girl for a minute an adorable good girl persona the other.You remind me what's like to be kids again,not having to worry anything,being happy 24/7.Doing what you like not caring what others think,your just...unique."
I hope that pleases her.
Like every other good thing,it never last.
'Still waiting at the place where I first saw you.I'm not gonna move.'
Here's a song for ya'll.
Time could never fly any faster,in a blink of an eye...it's Chinese New Year(MONEY).Anyways this blog is dedicated to the one and only 'sponge bob square pants' or 'miss I get sick after eating apples'.
Before school started,she asked for a somewhat astonishing favor from me.She said:Kennnn(notice the 'n's?That's how long she drags my name.) write me an essay describing me.So,being the gentleman that I am(I hear some coughs),I sportingly agreed.I never expected the essay would took me so long.But hey,better late than never.
How could I describe you?Words can't really describe you,there's just too much to say about you.Your funny,cute,mature,immature,childish,silly...your just simply...everything.It's been awhile since I last talked with her.Before we got back to talking,it's been like almost a year since we spoken a word to each other.
Even though it's been so long,I still can't really find the will to get over her.She's like cocaine to me,making me helplessly addicted to her.Though I might never have a chance to be with her,I could still love her.
Like a child,she acts according to her mood.A minute she could be laughing and joking around,the other she could be biting your head off.She once asked me what attracts me most.Simple,her innocence.
"Your not afraid of losing yourself.Party girl for a minute an adorable good girl persona the other.You remind me what's like to be kids again,not having to worry anything,being happy 24/7.Doing what you like not caring what others think,your just...unique."
I hope that pleases her.
Like every other good thing,it never last.
'Still waiting at the place where I first saw you.I'm not gonna move.'
Here's a song for ya'll.
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