I won't start with my standard "it's been a long time" quote because god knows it's been long,not that I believe in god for that matter. Anyway,after such a long hiatus from blogging, I can't help but feel that something is missing,especially when it's late at night and songs after songs are blasting through your earphones.
Well,it's been a month now since I've travelled across the globe to the place they call United Kingdom. To be honest, I was really scared I might not fit in and might find things difficult to coup,but to my surprise,things haven't been going so bad,maybe I need to concentrate more of my studies..but hey,why let studies stop you from living your life?
Frankly,other than the shitty weather, Bristol is a lovely place,although personally I think their night scene could use a little boost,not to say that they don't have clubs and pubs for the young and dumb,but there's just no place like Malaysia.Where else could you find yourself up till 3 in the morning at some mamak stall watching football and having delicious food at the same time?
Since I've broken my hiatus,I feel like blogging more frequently just to find somewhere to express my inspirations and what not,but I don't know if anyone's reading..so,if you are reading,thank you,and do leave a comment just to let me know that you're interested. Thanks again.
Friday, October 12, 2012
Monday, March 1, 2010
A piece of mind
Its been a while since I stopped by,in fact,a really long while.Nothing much to say,just like there's nothing much to do other than those little bits and bobs.
Life is...complicated as always,I'm accustomed to it by now.The irony in life shows no boundaries, one minute you're up up and away,the other,the sky comes crashing down,crushing your very beliefs.
That's not to say life isn't much fun,life IS fun,for the time being that is.
Lots if things that need to be done still undone,my task beforehand is piling up bit by bit.Like a ticking time bomb,my anger starts to show when frustration runs through my vein every time I face a predicament.
Is there always a right and wrong?Does the gray area exist?
Right,is not what I'm doing right now,but yet,my heart tells me that wrong is not the answer.So, what gives?Is my life gray?or is it just me pulling tricks on my mind?
Play with fire and you'll get burned.I AM THE FIRE.
Should I continue this path that I'm heading or should I bring an end to all these agonies and ironies?Questions,questions,my heart aches the same way it ached every time I ask myself why.
Will there be an answer?Or will my prayers be unheard?Only HE knows.
Life is...complicated as always,I'm accustomed to it by now.The irony in life shows no boundaries, one minute you're up up and away,the other,the sky comes crashing down,crushing your very beliefs.
That's not to say life isn't much fun,life IS fun,for the time being that is.
Lots if things that need to be done still undone,my task beforehand is piling up bit by bit.Like a ticking time bomb,my anger starts to show when frustration runs through my vein every time I face a predicament.
Is there always a right and wrong?Does the gray area exist?
Right,is not what I'm doing right now,but yet,my heart tells me that wrong is not the answer.So, what gives?Is my life gray?or is it just me pulling tricks on my mind?
Play with fire and you'll get burned.I AM THE FIRE.
Should I continue this path that I'm heading or should I bring an end to all these agonies and ironies?Questions,questions,my heart aches the same way it ached every time I ask myself why.
Will there be an answer?Or will my prayers be unheard?Only HE knows.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Past , Present , Future
As the new year started strolling,strolling towards another year of bumpy ride and social dilemma and emotional entanglement,a strong feeling inside me urges me to look back at the past year.
I wondered,what was there worth being looked back at? My studies? My ever-so complicated love life? My financial woes?Well,let's stop here for a second.
Regarding studies,as I look at my past years result,I can't help but to notice some odd development curve occurring.What I did really good at the start of the year,I failed miserably by the end of it; and what I failed miserably at the start of the year,I did quite well.Odd really.
As to love life.Well,close friends would know why the word complicated is used.But then again,the complication of the word is too complicated for the not-so complex mind of our youths these days to understand its full meaning,thus leading to the assumption of the word complicated roughly translates to the meaning(me not having a mate and yet still having a girl),which is part right but mostly wrong.
Sorry guys for the long-winded paragraph,but my hands were feeling kinda itchy.
Last but certainly not least.As we head closer to the stage where financial issues are becoming more of a problem than just a handicap some not so fortunate people have to worry about,I too am facing some financial difficulties.I hear people laughing.But it's true,money is hard to come by,and money that satisfies you is even harder to possess.
As my Cold Play CD is playing its last few songs,my leg beating to the beat of song,my thoughts are on the future that lies ahead of us.
Some sort of new year resolution had to be done.As to if I will achieve all my goals,that is another problem.
Here are my new year resolution,hopefully some of you will start a new year resolution of your own as well.
Top Priority:Get my studies done and get well prepared for the final battle that is the UEC.
2.Being more socially active(not that I'm inactive or anything,it's just that I'm greedy when it comes to making friends.)
3.Step up to the stage,develop my guts and speaking potential.
4.Improve my English writing.
Well,I guess that's it for now,as the music is getting to me...outta control right now.
P.S.New Years eve was awesome,hanged out with some dudes and dude-ets,was rocking like there was no tomorrow.
I wondered,what was there worth being looked back at? My studies? My ever-so complicated love life? My financial woes?Well,let's stop here for a second.
Regarding studies,as I look at my past years result,I can't help but to notice some odd development curve occurring.What I did really good at the start of the year,I failed miserably by the end of it; and what I failed miserably at the start of the year,I did quite well.Odd really.
As to love life.Well,close friends would know why the word complicated is used.But then again,the complication of the word is too complicated for the not-so complex mind of our youths these days to understand its full meaning,thus leading to the assumption of the word complicated roughly translates to the meaning(me not having a mate and yet still having a girl),which is part right but mostly wrong.
Sorry guys for the long-winded paragraph,but my hands were feeling kinda itchy.
Last but certainly not least.As we head closer to the stage where financial issues are becoming more of a problem than just a handicap some not so fortunate people have to worry about,I too am facing some financial difficulties.I hear people laughing.But it's true,money is hard to come by,and money that satisfies you is even harder to possess.
As my Cold Play CD is playing its last few songs,my leg beating to the beat of song,my thoughts are on the future that lies ahead of us.
Some sort of new year resolution had to be done.As to if I will achieve all my goals,that is another problem.
Here are my new year resolution,hopefully some of you will start a new year resolution of your own as well.
Top Priority:Get my studies done and get well prepared for the final battle that is the UEC.
2.Being more socially active(not that I'm inactive or anything,it's just that I'm greedy when it comes to making friends.)
3.Step up to the stage,develop my guts and speaking potential.
4.Improve my English writing.
Well,I guess that's it for now,as the music is getting to me...outta control right now.
P.S.New Years eve was awesome,hanged out with some dudes and dude-ets,was rocking like there was no tomorrow.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Is it too early to say goodbye?
What an emotional holiday this has been.Met some people who I thought I would never see again.
Traveled with,who I thought was strangers,but realize that I knew them way back.
It's funny how things always happen for a reason.You might say it's just a coincidence,but I say its all planned out by fate.
Now,as the holidays near its end,I feel empty again.Not because school is about to start,but because,well,I will be saying goodbye to the friends that are entering the next chapter of their lives. People always say nothing much is gonna change after high school.Well,they're wrong.
As I enter my last year of high school,and friends of mine taking a step closer to the real world,I feel afraid,afraid of the challenge that I someday will face,afraid that time passes too fast,afraid that those who are my friends now,will be nothing but a mere memory in the future.And I don't want that to happen.
After this,everything changes;after this,I don't know how long will we be able to hang out like we used to,have fun like there was no tomorrow,drink just for the pleasure of drinking,or hanging at Coffee Beans or Starbucks just to sit and talk.
I'm not really good with goodbyes.But goodbye still has to be said.Goodbye to our Innocence, goodbye to our Insanity,goodbye to our High School life,goodbye...
Traveled with,who I thought was strangers,but realize that I knew them way back.
It's funny how things always happen for a reason.You might say it's just a coincidence,but I say its all planned out by fate.
Now,as the holidays near its end,I feel empty again.Not because school is about to start,but because,well,I will be saying goodbye to the friends that are entering the next chapter of their lives. People always say nothing much is gonna change after high school.Well,they're wrong.
As I enter my last year of high school,and friends of mine taking a step closer to the real world,I feel afraid,afraid of the challenge that I someday will face,afraid that time passes too fast,afraid that those who are my friends now,will be nothing but a mere memory in the future.And I don't want that to happen.
After this,everything changes;after this,I don't know how long will we be able to hang out like we used to,have fun like there was no tomorrow,drink just for the pleasure of drinking,or hanging at Coffee Beans or Starbucks just to sit and talk.
I'm not really good with goodbyes.But goodbye still has to be said.Goodbye to our Innocence, goodbye to our Insanity,goodbye to our High School life,goodbye...
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Support PEACE... :)
I guess two in a row rarely happens with me,but then when the creative side takes over,I just can't stop typing.
I created a project with some friends of mine,called PEACE:A step towards PEACE.We wanted to share our opinions and tell the world what is going on and how we can make a difference.We will be posting things related to global issues and a bunch of other stuff.
In short,I hope you guys can contribute to this project by supporting it.I would be deeply gracious if you guys would just take a look,maybe it might change your perspective.As you all know,the world is nearing its end every second we waste.So,do something about it before it's too late.
Thanks
PEACE
Here's the pathway to PEACE
I created a project with some friends of mine,called PEACE:A step towards PEACE.We wanted to share our opinions and tell the world what is going on and how we can make a difference.We will be posting things related to global issues and a bunch of other stuff.
In short,I hope you guys can contribute to this project by supporting it.I would be deeply gracious if you guys would just take a look,maybe it might change your perspective.As you all know,the world is nearing its end every second we waste.So,do something about it before it's too late.
Thanks
PEACE
Here's the pathway to PEACE
Friday, December 11, 2009
Square one
First off...to those who don't know the meaning of square one,it means back to the place where things started...to the origin.
Well you see...as most of you 17 years old would know...by now,SPM is coming to a close...and now a new chapter awaits.It's funny how you don't really know time flies before it has already been wasted,funny really,to know that cherishing every moment in life is important,but yet...we seldom do cherish the things we love most.
It took me years after my moms death to realize how much I really do miss her,and now,regret fills every vein in my body...but the logical side of me dragged me out of my misery by telling me that...instead of mourning for your lost...why not use the time to enjoy life...live the moment...for yourself and your loved ones.
So,with that said.things have been happening as of late.
Recently...I just added another 'brother' to my collection.You see...to those who know about my family background...you'd know that in my case...having lots of brothers and sisters was inevitable...you see...my family has a serious case of 'lotsofkidsandwife' disease...and to add insult to injury(kinda inappropriate,but it will just have to do),I have 3 family...as in...if you want to take blood line,relationship and a bunch of other crap into account...I could call 3 people in this world 'dad'...well you get the idea.
Enough with the family history,what I wanted to say before I was rudely interrupted by the creative side of me,is that one of my 'dad' had a new born.Weird really...the way it happened...I don't mean the sex,and god sakes I don't wanna know...I meant by the way the child was brought into this world and its timeliness.
You see,last week,I went back to Thailand to visit my family,and a member of it was already pregnant,just waiting for the day to make a final visit to the doctor.I went there for a few days,and it started getting kinda bored,so I decided to head back home to Penang.As coincidence goes,the very next morning,I woke up and checked my phone(daily routine I suppose),I had 3 missed calls.I called him back and to my weirdest of surprises...the mom's water broke that very night and the child was born that very morning,2 weeks before the estimated time.
Wierd innit?How the Almighty works.
Another extra info,the newly born is as healthy as a newly born can be.
Into another subject.Due to the SPMs,I was forced to take tuition to boost the chances of me getting a worthy looking results in the most limited time possible.I started getting close to an old school friend of mine(not in that kinda way),we started hanging out and I met up with a few of my primary schoolmates.It was a pleasant feeling.Brings me back to the old days.
And now...as I try to finish what I started(this column),sitting in Starbucks,I realize that,no matter how far we go,no matter what we do in the future,we'd always have the past.And to be honest,having the past might sometimes be painful,but when you look at it from another perspective,you'd find it a wonderful feeling,trust me.
Newly born,old friends,new friends,no matter who they are,as long as they are a part of your life,hold it tight and don't let go,you might not know when 2012 strikes :).
All well ends well,so a goodnight to those sleepy heads and a good morning to those night crawlers like me.
PEACE
Well you see...as most of you 17 years old would know...by now,SPM is coming to a close...and now a new chapter awaits.It's funny how you don't really know time flies before it has already been wasted,funny really,to know that cherishing every moment in life is important,but yet...we seldom do cherish the things we love most.
It took me years after my moms death to realize how much I really do miss her,and now,regret fills every vein in my body...but the logical side of me dragged me out of my misery by telling me that...instead of mourning for your lost...why not use the time to enjoy life...live the moment...for yourself and your loved ones.
So,with that said.things have been happening as of late.
Recently...I just added another 'brother' to my collection.You see...to those who know about my family background...you'd know that in my case...having lots of brothers and sisters was inevitable...you see...my family has a serious case of 'lotsofkidsandwife' disease...and to add insult to injury(kinda inappropriate,but it will just have to do),I have 3 family...as in...if you want to take blood line,relationship and a bunch of other crap into account...I could call 3 people in this world 'dad'...well you get the idea.
Enough with the family history,what I wanted to say before I was rudely interrupted by the creative side of me,is that one of my 'dad' had a new born.Weird really...the way it happened...I don't mean the sex,and god sakes I don't wanna know...I meant by the way the child was brought into this world and its timeliness.
You see,last week,I went back to Thailand to visit my family,and a member of it was already pregnant,just waiting for the day to make a final visit to the doctor.I went there for a few days,and it started getting kinda bored,so I decided to head back home to Penang.As coincidence goes,the very next morning,I woke up and checked my phone(daily routine I suppose),I had 3 missed calls.I called him back and to my weirdest of surprises...the mom's water broke that very night and the child was born that very morning,2 weeks before the estimated time.
Wierd innit?How the Almighty works.
Another extra info,the newly born is as healthy as a newly born can be.
Into another subject.Due to the SPMs,I was forced to take tuition to boost the chances of me getting a worthy looking results in the most limited time possible.I started getting close to an old school friend of mine(not in that kinda way),we started hanging out and I met up with a few of my primary schoolmates.It was a pleasant feeling.Brings me back to the old days.
And now...as I try to finish what I started(this column),sitting in Starbucks,I realize that,no matter how far we go,no matter what we do in the future,we'd always have the past.And to be honest,having the past might sometimes be painful,but when you look at it from another perspective,you'd find it a wonderful feeling,trust me.
Newly born,old friends,new friends,no matter who they are,as long as they are a part of your life,hold it tight and don't let go,you might not know when 2012 strikes :).
All well ends well,so a goodnight to those sleepy heads and a good morning to those night crawlers like me.
PEACE
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Derby of the season!
What a night!What a night!The match between the two Manchester club is truly a match to remember.
I was on the way to my friends house to watch the match,an early kick-off at 8:30,while we were side tracked when me and a couple of friends went buying pizza(dominoes) for our friends.We came up late...when the screen was turned on...the score was 1-0...to my delight.
But,sadly,the goal was canceled out by a City equalizer thanks to a mistake by our goalkeeper.The match was filled with ups and downs.Half time came just at the right time as our team looked to be in danger.
Second half started well for us,we played with our normal grace,pushing our opponents to the limit.
A second goal was inevitable as Fletcher nicked in a nice header pass the keeper.Things were looking up for us until a shock equalizer came from a shocking strike from Bellamy.With ten minutes from time...our man of the match and previous goal scorer headed in what we thought was the winning goal.We were cheering with joy and delight...not too fast.
A dreadful mistake from our mostly reliable defender paid the price when city scored what everyone thought was the equalizing goal.We were near to tears...but we were up for another surprise.Our transfer of the season...Michael Owen...come on as a substitute.,hoping to change the course of the game...and oh boy did he did it.
With virtually seconds left...a glorious pass by Giggs found its way to Owen,and with the chance to become a hero for the reds...he scored the winning goal for our team.Our tears turned into tears of joy as we were jumping up and down in delight,screaming our hearts out as the joy was just so ever sweet.
What a night to remember...this is truly what I believe...the derby of the season...maybe even the Century!
I was on the way to my friends house to watch the match,an early kick-off at 8:30,while we were side tracked when me and a couple of friends went buying pizza(dominoes) for our friends.We came up late...when the screen was turned on...the score was 1-0...to my delight.
But,sadly,the goal was canceled out by a City equalizer thanks to a mistake by our goalkeeper.The match was filled with ups and downs.Half time came just at the right time as our team looked to be in danger.
Second half started well for us,we played with our normal grace,pushing our opponents to the limit.
A second goal was inevitable as Fletcher nicked in a nice header pass the keeper.Things were looking up for us until a shock equalizer came from a shocking strike from Bellamy.With ten minutes from time...our man of the match and previous goal scorer headed in what we thought was the winning goal.We were cheering with joy and delight...not too fast.
A dreadful mistake from our mostly reliable defender paid the price when city scored what everyone thought was the equalizing goal.We were near to tears...but we were up for another surprise.Our transfer of the season...Michael Owen...come on as a substitute.,hoping to change the course of the game...and oh boy did he did it.
With virtually seconds left...a glorious pass by Giggs found its way to Owen,and with the chance to become a hero for the reds...he scored the winning goal for our team.Our tears turned into tears of joy as we were jumping up and down in delight,screaming our hearts out as the joy was just so ever sweet.
What a night to remember...this is truly what I believe...the derby of the season...maybe even the Century!
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